Saturday, July 07, 2012

PCS (Vancouver 2012) Song List

Your Great Name - Natalie Grant

Be Lifted High - Brian Johnson

I Will Exalt You - Brian & Jenn Johnson

Our Messiah Reigns - New Life Worship

Overcome - Desperation Band / Jeremy Camp

The One Who Saves - Hillsong

All To Us - Chris Tomlin

Until the End - New Creation Church

I Sing Hosanna - New Creation Church

I Am Free - Newsboy

How He Loves - David Crowder Band

Your Beloved - Mary Chikagami Lee (SOP)

Friday, June 29, 2012

SP767 Day 5

There is no such thing as failure, just new learning experience.

Do not give your heart to what will not satisfy your heart.

On discernment: "My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.  I do not see the road ahead of me.  I cannot know for certain where it will end.  Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.  But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.  And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.  I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire.  And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it.  Therefore, I will trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death.  I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone." -Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude

Thursday, June 28, 2012

SP767 Day 4

In a pastoral encounter, what heals? The information conveyed or the human contact?

All learning has to finish with the question "so what?"

Little children do not have feelings. They are feelings.

We are (as pastors) are in a profession where intimacy is an integral part of, so it is common and unavoidable that we will run into boundary issues. Thus, be extra cautious.

It is not "Jesus and me" and "Jesus and us". It is not "I am in Christ" but "we are in Christ."

There are different types of experiences and we all experience God differently. There is not one right way experience God.

In our culture, we appreciate "feeler" more than "thinker" when talking about experience.

When you listen, listen to what is said as well as what is not said.

In temptation, you have said a hundred "yes" before you get to that fatal "yes".

The reason we don't sin more is not because we lack the ability but we lack the opportunity.

If the church is the target of the devil's attack, the pastor's heart is the bull's eye.

Do not use the word "cannot" unless it is absolutely accurate. ("I can't come" usually is just "I won't come". If you won't, don't say you can't because you actually can.)

Stop assuming people have common sense.

"I do not mean to slander them, just that their theology is not something that the Lord has lead me to embrace."

Cultivate the difficult, but necessary art of empathetic detachment so you are available but not “available.”

Boundary violation is gratification for yourself at someone else's expense.

Pastors need to take good care of themselves because they have less people to take care of them.

Women in our culture are trained to distrust their distrust and to be nice ("I know there is something wrong but I don't want to hurt his feeling"), and that puts them in a lot of potential dangers and harms.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

SP767 Day 3

Loneliness does not come from having no people about one, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to oneself, or from holding certain views which others find inadmissible. -C. G. Jung, Memories, Dreams, Reflections, "Retrospect"

“The first duty of love is to listen.”  -Paul Tillich

"I am human, nothing human is alien to me." -Terentius

I have always been complaining that my work was constantly interrupted, until I slowly discovered that my interruptions were my work. - Henri Nouwen

Effective mentors are proactive listeners. Listen to them before they even speak.

Sunday morning in the church lobby is where you can only neglect everyone. You cannot assume any meaningful and focused conversation can happen because there are too much distractions.

We have to live with the discomfort of being finite.

Listening is hard because it involves a loss of control.

Everyone of us is vulnerable and have the right to defend ourselves, but we don't need to do it destructively. There is a difference between defending and being defensive.

Transformation is messy and time consuming.

An unanswered question is a fine traveling companion.  It sharpens your eyes for the road. -Rachel Naomi Romer

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

SP767 Day 2

Mentors are not there to solve problems. Mentors need to know what they cannot do.

If you need to refer someone to a professional, it is better to send him/her to a good atheist than a bad Christian.

The only thing that is worse than no mentoring is bad mentoring.

As pastor we are no better than the people we serve. We are only set apart for some specific functions.

Every encounter is not between the 2 same persons from last time.

When mentoring, we have to let go of our prejudice towards our mentee accumulated from past meetings with him/her, and we have to let go of our desire for him/her to do what we want him/her to do.

Mentors should always be looking for ways to ask who you are and who do you intend to be. -Walter Wright, Mentoring

Parker Palmer, Let Your Life Speak. “Is the life I am living the same as the life that wants to live in me?”

Most problems in ministry arise from issues of character.

I am not ashamed to admit that I am ignorant in what I do not know. - Cicero

Surrender as much of yourself as you understand, to as much of God as you understand. -Sam Shoemaker

We model character, not just by being perfect but also by struggling.

There are people that we will not be the best mentor of. We have our limitations.

Never fail, whatever may befall you, be it good or evil, to keep your heart quiet and calm in the tenderness of love. -St. John of the Cross

Be their example, not their legislator. Be a healer by getting well.

The past is a foreign country. They do things differently there. -L. P. Hartley

Do not prefer your leisure to the need of the church. -St. Augustine

How we pray reveals how we think about God. Our prayer is our theology.

We cannot remain Christian without Christians.

A brother asked Abba Matoes: What shall I do? My tongue causes me trouble, and whenever I am among people, I cannot control it and I condemn them in all their good deeds and contradict them. What, therefore, shall I do? The old man answered him: If you cannot control yourself, go away from people and live alone. For this is a weakness --- Those who live together with others ought not to be square, but round, in order to turn toward all. Further, the old man said: I live alone not because of my virtue, but rather because of my weakness. You see, those who live among people are the strong ones. -Sayings of the Desert Fathers

Mentoring can be painful. When you ask a question, are you really willing to listen to their "stuff"?

SP767 Day 1

In his essay Distance and Relation (1950) Martin Buber wrote: We wish to be confirmed in our being by another person, and we wish to have a presence in the being of the other. ...secretly and bashfully we watch for a Yes which allows us to be and which can come to us only from one human person to another. It is from one person to another that the heavenly bread of self-being is passed. (emphasis mine)

Amma Synkletika (Egypt, died 400 AD): It is perilous for a person to teach who has not first been seasoned by personal experience.  For if someone who owns a shabby house invites guests there, he endangers them by his neglected building.  It is the same situation for someone who has not first built an inner abode.  He causes danger to those who visit.  By words one may convert them to salvation, but by bad personal conduct, one injures them.

Johannes Tauler (1300-1361): “An unfaithful spiritual director is like a bad hunting dog.  Instead of bringing the rabbit to its master, it devours the rabbit itself.”

Generally speaking, if you want to know who you really are as distinct from who you like to think you are, keep an eye on where your feet take you.  (Frederick Buechner, Wishful Thinking: A theological ABC.)

“As I am a beginner myself, I will assume that you are also beginners, and we will try to begin together” (Anthony Bloom. Beginning to Pray)

“We do not want to be beginners.  But let us be convinced of the fact that we will never be anything else but beginners all our life” (Thomas Merton, Contemplative Prayer)

We never assume we know how to mentor people, no matter how much experience you have.

Realize that the Holy Spirit is always the primary mentor. We are just the instrument through which He works.

Beware of techniques. It is not about techniques and practices. It is all about relationship.

We are mentoring all the time. People are looking at us.

Our biggest mistake is trying to be more spiritual than God.

Programs are for serving the person, not the reverse.

Do not preach to the congregation that you wish you have. Preach to the congregation in front of you.

You are the key to the healthy church. Healthy church can only be led by healthy leaders.

None of us is fit for ministry. But God use broken vessel for everything.

We can be who are are and different at different times without compromising our authenticity.

The mind is a dangerous neighbourhood, don't go there alone.

Do not offer what you are not ready to give.

Thursday, February 16, 2012







Sunday, January 01, 2012


This is the song I wrote for the 51st Canadian Chinese Christian Winter Conference.
Copyright 2011 Alan C. Yu. UBP ARR









Music Score


Thursday, May 05, 2011

The secret diary of Moses

This is a composition assignment written by my son Alpha in grade 2.

A burning bush
June 24, 1999BC

Dear Diary,

Today, I was given rank of a shepherd.  At precisely 12:00 noon, my third sheep yelled: "BAAAA!" As if to say, "Come follow me." And then she ran away!  Shepherd's cane in the air, I sprinted after her.  3 minutes later, I tracked her down.  She was at a narrow valley, with a single bush.  Then it caught on fire! I mean, it was not!  But it was! It was burning but it was not burning.  I mean, it was on fire but did not burn!  Then I was struck by the voice of GOD! "Take off your sandals Moses, for you are on Holy Ground.  When you have gone into exile from Pharoah, I have seen your people work hard.  Go back to that land where you killed a native.  And say: Let my people go.  And now!" But I yelled, "For I am a fat feeble old man!! I am 10000 years old - Too old!!! I am not a good talker!!!!" "I will send your brother Aaron with you." God boomed.  "Still, no." I complained.  So God said, "Moses, throw thy staff on thy ground." Now, I sensed a trap.  I could have said no but this was God speaking to me.  So I did as I was told.  Then instantly, it turned into a snake.  Not a snake, but a cobra!!!  I freaked out, but God said, "Moses, pick up thy staff." with a shaking hand, I did so.  And it turned into a staff.  "Still, no." I said.  "Moses, take thy hand and put it into thy collar." So I did.  "Take thy hand out of thy collar." God boomed.  So I did.  With a ssh-shads sound, it was a thick slime that covered my fingers.  "Now you have to put thy hand in collar." So I did.  And... No more slime!!!  "Now you have seen the power of God." God exclaimed.  "Now go." So I did.  Time for this entry to end.  Bye bye.



Friday, February 04, 2011

Insights from Day 10 at CN705

  • Be CAREFUL in taking care of our body as the temple of God.
  • Burnout is a syndrome of emotional exhaustion, depersonalization and reduced personal accomplishment that occurs in individuals who work with people. (Too much caring; too little resource.)
  • There is no such thing as failure in God's kingdom, only forced growth.
  • Burn-out could take 5 to 6 years to work out.
  • Burn-out people say, "Yes, there is a God, but He just doesn't care about me." That sense of loss is what is devastating about burn-out.
  • When you lack support, your chance of burn-out increases dramatically.
  • Support has to come from top-down. You cannot look to your congregation for support.
  • Causes of burn-out includes situational and ongoing minor conflicts, inadequate support and rewards, low-grade depression, irrational expectations and lack of assertiveness. Over-work is not the key.
  • Stress-out is the exhaustion of your adrenaline system; burn-out is the exhaustion of your emotional system with loss of empathy, caring, hope and detachment. Both are forms of depression.
  • Type B personality is more prone to burn-out.
  • We suffer burn-out from emotional triangles. Training in systems theory can help reduce burn-out.
  • We suffer burn-out from not having a safe place to express intense job-related feelings (aggravated by confidentiality issues).
  • We suffer burn-out from a confused sense of purpose accompanied by administrative overload.
  • Humour is powerful in putting things back into perspective.
  • 1 in 3 pastors 10 years in ministry shows signs of burn-out.
  • Leaving your ministry will not help your burn-out.
  • Sympathy is actually not helpful to ourselves as well as to the people we help. We need to learn empathy.
  • We need to develop healthy theology of compassion, self-care, success and failure.
  • Success has little spiritual and therapeutic value. It does not make our life better. Success is just a bonus God give to those who are faithful.
  • God is not in the success business but the refine business. God cares about the maturity of our life more than the size of our church.
  • Because of the information technology revolution, pastors now are constantly being compared to the celebrity pastors. This has created tremendous stress on pastors.


  • 正如林一峰話齋,閱讀,也是一種 state of mind。
  • 所以不限文字,還有聲音影像一切雜崩能東西,都在涉獵反思消化乾坤大挪移之列。
  • 看重的只有一個字:Insight


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